Unsaid Things.

At 70

2012-01-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

How do you imagine yourself in let's say 10 years time? Allah wills that you are still here kicking and living - what is on your mind?

Okay kids, that is your homework before you went to bed tonight. Moving on - yesterday, I went for home visit. That's where you visit patients at their homes. Ha ha ha funny aren't I. Anyway, first house. Getting inside, there was a bed at the living room with an old man. Enter a young adult, girl - shake her hand. Then two older women, and another old woman(oldest). Shake shake. Thought they were all not related, just patients with illnesses living together. No. Found out their identities - grandmother, grandfather, daughter, daughter, granddaughter. All with the same diagnosis - schizophrenia. Eh no, the grandfather did not have it. My god, the whole family - was my precise thought. The nurses refilled their meds and the doctor went to his hello - how are you feeling today - everything okay? mode.

Cutting a story short, the errands were all done by the grandmother. Not that she runs everything, but most of the thinking like getting OKU cards, applying from kebajikan, all her doings. At some point grandma's mood was suddenly altered, that she began to cry as she let out her problems. So sad. Can you imagine, at 70, she had to deal with that kind of things? I'm so grateful my grandma is still okay.......mentally. Ah, what is sane anyway.

Now this is really important. Parents do play a great deal in child's personality. You see, in case like Schizophrenia for example, there is no gene identifiable that is responsible for the illness but there is the gene that makes you susceptible in getting the illness. Just. And there is the imitation theory. Ever heard imitation is the best form of flattery? Yep. Only in this case there is nothing flattering. Imagine, the girl who is staying with three adults with peculiar behaviours. Now now, if you read schizophrenia they don't exhibit the symptoms all time....aish....understand or not.....

Another house. Patient was the daughter, she had difficulty getting up from the bed and she lives with her mom who has dementia and dad with parkinson. Dad does all the chores. And the mom, she said she no longer wanted to be in this world. I don't know how to react but said, Makcik, kesian nanti pakcik tinggal sorang dengan anak. Ah I wished I was a better speaker!

My point being - if you are reading this, consider yourself lucky. Very lucky. And be grateful for it! For only God knows, they suffer a lot.

X

2/366.

2012-01-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

Well hello 2012!

I want to be as healthy as possible so that one day I'd be able to perform this awesome stunt;

The rest of the resolutions are yet to be written in the Book. Some interesting terms I came across reading Psychiatry:

Amorous delusion : When a woman feel she is loved by a man whom has never spoken to her and the fact that he is inaccessible like a public figure sth. ( I knew he *insert your crush celebrity here* loves me he just doesnt realize it, yet )

I WAS LIKE, OH MY GAWD. Is he writing me?

etc

Till then oh and yes, thank you. To those who has so far, been so amazing for putting up with me, the same ol' emotionally complex me. <3.

2011-11-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

Mr J, on his last class with us has casually mentioned that we are the future doctors. Take roughly two years and pop - we'll bear the title Dr before our names, and something about having a license to kill - the 007 deal. Let's just forget that for a moment.

How about me applying for (if it is even feasible) a license to slap people, so hard that it scars their brains and to never ever, talk down to people, again. As they say - kuang ajo. I don't get:

1) How can a person be so ruuuuuuuuuuuuuuude. Actually, make that three.
2) Why
3) Why
4) Why

/frustration

Hehe, on a lighter note, today marked my last day being in Ear, Nose and Throat posting. Way, waaaay fun. Next stop : Ophtalmology.

The man who would be king.

2011-11-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

The king of my heart. ( aw, haha, let me be)

Currently he is in Australia participating in a telly show called I'm a Celebrity; Get me out of here! but that's practically it, I had no idea what the show is all about. How to survive in the jungle without your band mates, maybe? You'd think I'm a professional stalker I'd know everything of his matters but no - it doesnt work that way.

AND I kept imagining that he would be sleeping in the trees...eating rotten apples.... *sighs

Dougie Lee Poynter for the king of Jungle. yep.
May the best man win!
Basha!

ONE MORE.

Adorable Simba of Longleat Safari, England.

Oh, I've got to do this.

2011-10-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm officially waving goodbye to October, and Hellllloooo November. I am no psychic but November this year, it's gunna get hectic. Messy.

Let's recap October:
1. You Me at Six. ( discovered this band during study leave. EPIC)

2. Finals. ( I cannot even. Urgh. Tawakkal)

3. My 22nd birthday!

4. Real Steel. (dude, what a movie. Seriously, what.)

5. The Hunger Games trilogy. ( Tom Fletcher spoke so highly of it I'm dying of curiosity. Thanks to Najwae for the ebook. And Cashmere, for being so convenience. )

Cashmere aka Cash, the royal companion.

November:
Now, now.

1. Triad posting starts tomorrow. (still October, I realized that, but meh) I've been reading the anatomy of the ear for days! :^) keep that attitude huh.

2. AND AND the highlight of this point - I am so joining NaNoWriMo this year! It stands for National Novel Writing Month. Held every November, all you've gotta do is write, write and write. Basically 50k words in a month! phew. Even more fantastic, I know what I'll be writing :)

Here's a sneak peak.

Ha. What the title says.

Q and A session:

Q: The title looks familiar, but I can't figure it out. What is it eh?

A: Oooo it's from a song called Parallel Worlds by Elliot Minor. It's an inspiration. Read the lyrics, you're going to have a general idea of my story.

My minds playing up, again, and someone's there

The room is getting colder now

The light swings again

And I'm scared, cos someone's there

I'm stuck against a wall I can't make a move

My heart beat stops

I'm scared of this time cos I can't make a line

Say once again it proves just to be difficult

I'm feeling nervous but it's nothing I cannot do

I'm stuck in a dimension where it's hard to breath

And it's still true, I'm losing my mind, I'm falling

Someone help me what can I do!

Trapped in your world where you're burning in my eyes

You're like a shadow that never hides......

I'm stuck in parallel worlds, it's something supernatural, it wont let me go

It's paranormal and no one else believes me,

I feel so alone again.

Q: So it's not a rip off of the Supernatural show you're currently and forever obsessed about?

A: No, that I can guarantee. The characters aren't Dean, Sam, Bobby, and no demons either!

Q: So who's the star?

A: It's Dougie, Dougie Poynter from Essex. He's the talent, my big star. At least for the time being. Until I figure my own character cos I'm thinking of writing an original, y'know? Not a fanfiction/based on movies.

Q: Can you tell more about the story?

A: Nope, afraid not. I have not done the plot doctoring myself. Later alright?

<3.

Take care, you lovely people.

desktop confession!

2011-10-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

Whaaaaa? today's already the 14th?! Felt like September just ended yesterday.....eeek.

Till I get back to you, bb. <3.

Well this has been wonderful, take care peeps!

You said you were past it

2011-09-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

..but why do you keep bringing it up...!

Today - at the daycare, Hospital Kuala Lumpur - met a Chinese girl who came for a blood transfusion. I however am not talking the procedure/disease she bears here.

It's the patient itself.
The girl.

Whom I could have sworn, looked 99% like my late sister :^) I felt the urge, this strong force - but resisted it, to hug her there and then. I stared at her, couldn't help but be in awe at this person in front of me. Girl you're looking fine.

To Sarah - the girl who lived a decade.

The art of playing it cool

2011-09-11T20:14:00.000+08:00

And it used to intimidate me had a senior doctor stand right before me; this time at about 1 feet distance, man did I tried. To answer her question intelligently that I looked into every corners, kinks in the brain but.....eeek you know how it went. So there she was, in such proximity, eyes-to-eyes. I of course, could not recall the fact and went for that look. Unfazed.

"That's the problem with you medical students, you rely too much on your notes, books that somehow you neglect to understand it", she had said during rounds days ago.

WHEN you do not know the answer, don't linger, don't laugh sheepishly, just don't. Just say; I'm not sure, or I don't know. AND do not apologize every 5 seconds either, godssake.

*

Have you ever felt so angry towards someone that you could slap that person with a 44/16? Or you felt so wronged that you thought whatever you said that time wouldn't matter? But you did nothing. Not even flinching, not even blinking. You're unresponsive, even though all fibres in your body fought so hard for dominance, to take over. This is where; patience is virtue dude. When a response is clearly needed, don't give it.

Play it cool.

Love the swings, mom.

ps/ Into second phase Paediatrics already, still haven't covered NICU's learning issues! wuu

Orthopaedics and Traumatology 101

2011-08-01T11:34:00.001+08:00

Caveat
This poorly attempt at a guideline is written by the mediocre student who has just finished her Orthopaedics rotation and now she's waiting to get home on a jet plane and she thinks, 'WHAI NAWT' so here it is. Please, if you wanna add something, be my guest.

That first day,
you'll wake up, smile, and say to your subconscious, 'I'm gonna ace this posting- whatever it takes' Just like what I did this morning, this peaceful Monday of the 1st Ramadhan. (Salam Ramadhan Mubarak, fellow sisters and brothers)

Briefing
Where : Seminar room, Ortho department at the 9th floor (lecs, seminars, all will be held here)
Time : Just be there by 8 c'clock.
You'll be sorted into ~~houses~~ teams : Spine, Sport, Arthroplasty, Oncology, Paediatrics, Hand, Trauma and Rehab. For the first TWO weeks you'll be under your primary team and starting week 3, you rotate. As simple. As for me, I was in Spine and be supervised by the benevolent, so cool Mr Shaharuddin Abd Rhani :)

Requirements:
1. Clinic - Like any other postings, where you learn most things. Don't just stand in the alley you'll precipitate atherosclerosis and irritate kakak PK and doctors, pick a file and get out of their way, please thank you.

2. Morning rounds - Mandatory. Know your patients. Some doctors expect highly of us, some just looked through us, if you get what I mean.......hehe. There are FOUR wards in Ortho : Trauma, Ortho Female and Male, Spine. Will that be sufficient or you gonna need a floor plan? ;) hehe. And if you're under Paeds, you'll go to this one Paeds ward situated just there.

3. Operational theatre - Oh, the stuffs are just too specific for me. But hey, we are learning, right...Hmm during Hand Team we are advised to observe cases in Daycare. You'll learn some common procedures like carpal tunnel release and pulley release for trigger finger. (AND remember this, if there is a Mr Jamari, you follow him, don't let him get out of your sight. Never, ever, promise me)

4. Seminar, lectures - GO GO GO.

5. Radiology/histopathology conference - Hehe. You go once, and then decide by yourself. It was what I did.

6. Practical skills workshops -
a)Splinting and casting : be done in POP clinic. You'll perform to each other, and you are required to wear it for a night and later write a reflection on it (as a PPD component)
b)Wound dressing : no workshop, but you must perform it, it's the basic of a wound care. I prefer doing in the wards rather than clinic, and you learn from the staff nurses, they have been amazing. :)
c)Traction : also, no workshop. You must observe the procedure. Go to OT in the emergency department (ground floor)
d)bandaging, taping, tourniquet : also, no workshop. Learn from the staff nurse.

7. Log book - you fill her up.
8. Write ups - TWO needs to be done. One Orthopaedics case and the other is Trauma case.
9.Observed long case - in the guidebook says it but nay,there isnt one. I could only speculate 'em surgeons are just too busy. hihi.

Is that all?
Maybe I should elaborate on each teams? I dunno....

Oh, the books. For physical examination, you refer either 1)McRae 2)Apley. You dont go and order the UM physical exam from you-know-who. That book lacks in so many places. Hoho, sedap mengata buku orang.

Xx

Bless my patients

2011-06-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

Babak 1, di wad, masa tengah clerk patient.

Pakcik X:
Nak dengar satu rahsia? Pakcik pasang skru dua kali. Kali pertama, 2009, dekat leher. 5 skru. Setahun lepas tu, dekat pinggang, berapa skru tak ingat. Jangan bagitau orang lain, nanti pakcik meninggal ada pulak yang nak curi skru pakcik. Tak pasal-pasal skru pakcik dijual second hand nanti.

Pakcik, takkan sampai camtu sekali.....huhu

(Quotation untuk satu skru, dalam RM10k? 5 skru dah RM50k kot.Lepas tu sambung history taking. Nak tahu sejarah kesihatan pakcik pulak)

Cerita pasal jantung.

Pakcik ada masalah jantung?

Ada, dulu ada salur tersumbat. Buat bypass.
Oh, berapa, pakcik?
Dua.

Nak tahu satu rahsia lagi? *angguk2 girang* (dalam hati, pakcik, banyak nye rahsia, hehe)

Amik tu *pakcik tunjuk stetoskop* dengar, takde kat situ *tunjuk dada nye, belah kiri*

Terus saya faham. Pakcik nak cakap, jantung nya kat belah kanan! Excited nak dengar woh!

Pastu dengar punya la dengar, pakcik punya heart beats agak perlahan bunyi nya, tapi still boleh appreciate, sebab kat sebelah kiri dada tu memang silent chest.

Pakcik, pakcik tahu hati pakcik kat mane?

Tahu, kat belah kiri ni. Appendix pon kat kiri. Doktor cakap, pakcik punya organ semua mirror image, terbalik. Sepatutnya kepala pakcik pusing menghadap belakang. (saya dah tersengih-sengih, pakcik ni ada-ada je)

(Dextrocardia can occur in isolation but in some, it can occur together with other organs as well, we call that dextrocardia with situs invertus

Then the most common question asked by physician that attended pakcik's case was;
They wanna know whether pakcik has any offspring or not.)

The relationship between dextrocardia and reproductive functions? I had no idea.

But alhamdulillah pakcik ada 4 orang anak =)
Pakcik, pakcik yang sangat baik, terima kasih sebab melayan kami =) You made my day <3.

Babak 2. Ngeri tengok traumatic cases. Pasang besi dalam, luar, in and out, nampak flesh lagi. Kuatkan mereka ya Allah, dan aku juga. Alhamdulillah SN baik-baik, sabar layan kerenah saya membersihkan luka patients. AND saya dah pandai balut stump! hehe. Itu next next next time punya story.

Babak 3.
Beriya iya prektis nak present masa seminar, topik Brachial plexus injury, long thoracic nerve injury dan spinal accessory nerve injury. Sampai kat depan je prof yang terang semua. Huge relief, but at the same time I was kinda....disappointed? Hmmm. Teringat cikgu Bio kat KMNS dulu, yang banyak kali kasi peluang saya berucap di depan. By that I mean, mengajar. Eh no, present di depan. *whatevers*

ps/ Ini post berkulat sudah.

Bijan

2011-06-19T10:17:00.000+08:00

Dulu, setiap kali beli Ujang mesti baca semua kartun Bijan dulu. Bijan best. Balik rumah tokcek hari itu, terjumpa edisi ini dan lantas snapped itu gambar. Enjoy =)

Selamat Hari Ahad semua! Hmm, dah 2 minggu posting Ortho, tak terasa nak menulis lagi.

Have a lovely day <3.

Satu petang

2011-05-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hai. Bertemu kembali dalam slot Bersama Maryam Hadi(blueek).

Tadi, pagi tadi, takmau cite lah saya buat apa. Petang, study sambil mengintai-intai Playful Kiss yang bermain di laptop. Petang, makan luar. Tiba-tiba, sambil menghirup tomyam yang panas itu(yeke masa tu tengah menghirup) nampak asap berkepul-kepul. Hitam, pekat. Nun jauh di sana, macam datang dari KTDI(college sweet college). Dalam hati, 'alamak jangan bilik aku yang meletop, ish ni semua Supernatural punya pasal lambat sangat nak download so aku bia je la laptop tu 24/7'.Sebelum ni, bilik lama saya tu boleh nampak la pemandangan amazing kat luar tu; fireworks, menara KL, loji(okay ini x amazing), nurse-nurse jalan dari luar,atau pon pembakaran secara terbuka yang kerap saja berlaku.

Tapi kali ni serious asap tu hitam lain macam. Kitorang bergegas makan(yeye) pastu balik kolej pastu mencari di mana punca kebakaran. Sampai je di tempat kejadian, dah sah, memang kebakaran tu kat kawasan kolej kitorang. Aku pon pergilah, dengan keyakinan seperti Sam Winchester ke arah sekumpulan senior, lantas bertanya. 'Akak, ape yang jadi'

Jawabnya, 'Oh, a car exploded'. (sebenarnya akak tu balas Malay, saje aku English kan). Aku tergamam, betul ke ni? 'Eh, ada orang tak dalam keta tu?' Aku cemas. Alhamdulillah lah takda orang. Musykil aku, camne leh meletop. Nak aje aku pergi kat polis tu dan cakap, 'Sir, Maryam Hadi, a nobody. You mind telling me what happened here?' (berangan sambil berdoa encik tu tak sepak aku sebab menyebok). Lepas tu aku pandang semua orang di tempat kejadian, mencari suspek.
Hmmmm.

Then pergi rumah Ana banana, kat sana mereka tengah makan makanan pasar malam, aku cite ape yang jadi tapi diorang meragui story ku. Sampai hati. -___-. Tapi tak pe jugak, dapat makan free =)

Let's go Europe!

2011-05-09T17:36:00.001+08:00

Teringin nak melancong? Tapi tak tahu agensi mana yang tawarkan pakej menarik? Menarik, macam, you can choose to camp in tents(ini untuk korang yang berjiwa lasak, kental, ataupon bekas Pengakap kat sekolah dulu). Kalau tak mau, cabins pon ada. Whatever helps you sleep at nights. =)

Dah lama usha website ni, kawan saya yang study kat England yang rekomen. Ini sangat jimat kalau pergi ramai-ramai dengan family(atau dengan kawan, atau rombongan satu kampung). Dah la save budget, orang Malaysia sendiri yang kendalikannya tau. So in my opinion, the site is legit(legitimate). Hmfhfhfh. Makin lama tengok site tu makin geram.

Hoh. Lupa nak kasi link dia : Kelana Convoy

Pastu you all tahu kan, Malaysian biggest airline(MAS) tengah tawarkan promosi baru ni? Global Deals, Dream Getaway. Ada banyaaaak tempat yang boleh pergi, check out if your desired destination is featured. Oh. Geramnya. That's not exactly a Euro Trip offer, as there are many other places out there included.

Saya dah tegaskan kat atas, tawaran ni kejap je. Dia tak selalu datang, kadang-kadang diibaratkan seperti menunggu hujan di musim kemarau. Kah2. MAS, one day you gunna bring me to London Heathrow! Kalau nak amik domestic flights, Air Asia(AA) dah memadai. Tapi kalau nak pergi tempat-tempat jauh tu, MAS is the ultimate, sole choice lah.

Kalau nak pergi London, AA hantar kat Stansted, tapi MAS hantar kat Heathrow. I've been wanting to get to Heathrow ever since I heard Busted-Sleeping WIth the Lights On(that was in 2003 if you have to know).

Go follow your dreams, guys! (Or, girls)

2011-05-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Saya selalu putus semangat. Kadang-kadang terlebih semangat, hyperactive. Pastu sekelip mata je(tak sempat nak kelip mata pon), semangat itu hilang. Macam tadi, beriya-iya baca penyakit-penyakit sistem paru-paru ni, masa baca pasal Asma okey lagi. Lepas tu, COPD. (entah apa nama dia dalam Bahasa Melayu). Lagi, Cor Pulmonale. (Ini pon saya tak tahu BM dia apa, oh bahasa ibunda sendiri pun tak tahu apa, slap diri sendiri baru tahu).

Lepas tu baca apa eh? Oh, tak habis baca Cor Pulmonale rupanya. (By this point, tumpuan dah kurang sikit). Tambah lagi housemate saya ada kat rumah sekarang(yay!).

Okey. Pergi bilik dia. Borak panjang. Dapat balik semangat. Balik bilik sendiri(yang hanya beberapa langkah). Sedih sekejap, hence this entry. I'm moving into the house next door! :D Sayu sikit lah, tapi tak pe, dekat je rumah baru saya. Kalau rajin saya pos gambar di sini. KALAU.

Oh Maryam Hadi, tolonglah fokus sikit pada tujuan asal post ni.

Mencari Semangat Yang Hilang
Tak payah susah-susah cari sebenarnya. Dah tahu kat mana. (haha). Lepas tamat nya semua ini(dalam masa 3 minggu?) saya akan terbang ke KB. Kawan-kawan, selagi orang tua masih hidup, kerap lah jumpa mereka. Hmmmm kali terakhir saya dah lama tak balik rumah, masa tu 2007, zaman matrik. Adik perempuan saya kembali ke rahmatullah. 2007 = the darkest moments of my life. Mujur omak eden selamat. Tak sanggup nak hidup tanpa beliau.

Happy mother's day mama!

1. Khemah dah pasang kat bawah tu, untuk pelajar tahun 3 nanti, hehe, saya kena nyah dari bilik ni cepat-cepat nampaknya =)

2. Oh besok ada bedside teaching =)

In the end, you matter.

2011-05-07T15:34:00.000+08:00

Movie; The Notebook.

February Flight Challenge.

2011-04-28T20:08:00.002+08:00

This entry is so long overdue! It is written for a competition held by my amazing friend Athira Hani/Trex. Hope you like it, somewhat ridiculous.

Challenge:
Bayangkan korang melalui detik-detik mendebarkan apabila kapal terbang mengalami kerosakan jentera dan korang terpaksa terjun dari kapal terbang sebagai satu-satunya pilihan yang ada!

Okay Trex, you asked for it =)

(starts)

I couldn't shake this feeling, this acute anxiety I happened to diagnose myself ever since the co-pilot announced, 'Dear passengers, we are experiencing some turbulence in the air but rest assured, we are taking care of this. Fasten your seat belt though'.

I was not convinced. Then it happened again, the second 'turbulence', as he called it. Only this time, the plane was madly shaken, suddenly everyone was screaming and me, looking at them, analyzing.

Just a moment later, steward number one stood before us, instructing on how
to use a parachute. Looked easy, I told myself. The next thing I knew they were all standing, each with their parachutes, ready to go. The horror! That was when realization hit me. We had to get out of the plan, stat, or we'd be dead meat.

Turbulence my ass. If I got out of this alive, the CEO of BB Airline will get my personal letter, I made a mental note to myself.

I was the last passenger to jump. Smiling awkwardly to steward number one I mumbled, 'I kinda like you, maybe we should hang out some time'. Okay I admitted. That was an awkward and out of place thing to say, considering the situation we were in but hey, what if this was the last moments of my life?

To my astonishment he replied, 'oh sugar, how about dinner on Friday?'. Patting my shoulder he gave one last grin and I jumped into the air, screaming my lungs out.

My heart was pumping erratically I could feel it pounding against my chest cavity. I tried to balance myself but to no avail then I remember the parachute. Easy peasy, just pull the blue string and you are done. Except..... there was no blue string. Or any colours for that matter. My god, I am dying aren't I.

In one last attempt to find the string I felt salty water running through my cheeks. Self,this wasn't the time to cry. They said when you were on the brink of death you'd see flashes of occurences happening throughout your life. But I did not(was it a good thing?) I was coming close to the sea now wherever this was there better not have sharks!, closing my eyes I prayed hard, 'Let me live'. Then everything went black.

*

I struggled just to get these eyes open. Where was I? The mattress felt soft on my back. I tried to stand but somehow the pitch black darkness seemed to aggravate the matter. I fell. And was I dreaming? I felt the bed moved. Like, in waves. Then a lot of sticky fluid coming from the other side.

What if, a whale ate me?
I heard myself laughing.
Then I passed out.

*

This time I woke up in a real bed, someone holding my hand. She must have sensed me waking up for suddenly she was wide awake, her eyes blotched. 'Oh you woke up' I fought hard with my inner self, commanding my brain to send signals to my vocal cord so it could actually produce some voice hopefully and when I did my own voice sounded strange to my ear.

'Professor McGonagall? I-I, w-we didnt mean to do it!' Why was I apologising?She would deduct the points from Gryffindor anyway.'Uhm, is Harry safe? Ron? My Ron,did he make it?Please please tell me they are doing okay.Professor Dumbledore is going to be mad at us.'

And I had no idea why she went full mode crying. Seriously, did we kill someone this time? 'Dont worry about it, just get some rest, honey' Then I drifted to sleep.

*

27 April-Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia- An aspiring young doctor suffered amnesia and identity crisis after one week in coma. Dr Maryam AH, is one of the few survivors reported from the Boeing 997 crash heading to Heathrow, London on that fateful day 17th April. She woke up yesterday and upon
questioning, 'DO you know who you are' her response was, 'Of course I do,silly, but in case you wanna know who I am, it's Hermione Granger and I'm late for Potion. Excuse me'.

God bless this woman.

Reported by: Adam Hatta for Malaysian Daily.

(ends)

Rather pointless entry

2011-04-19T16:38:00.001+08:00

I'm down with fever, been 3 days now. And all I do is sleep. Just now I had this dream;

Scene 1:
Me and my Obs & Gynae supervisor Prof H, we were in a small room, reciting Quran session like he's my tahsin ustaz.

Prof H : Repeat after me, clearly.
Me : I-I *stutters* (I wanted to say I had sore throat)

Scene 2:
Me and Selene Gomez. (Yes, don't ask)

Me : Selena, I need to ask you something. *looks hurriedly at her* But dont get mad yeah? *catch her eyes again* If you dont wanna answer it it's fine, just ignore me. *pauses for a moment*

Me : Are you.....dating Justin? (Justin as in Justin Bieber)

Selena : *looks at me expectantly, then broke down*

Me: Hey, it's okay....shushhh shushh *caressing her back*

Selena : I-I lo-love hi-him so-so m-much *sobs harder*

.....

#1 Wae, ini mesti sebab awak ajak NsN3d tu :')

Journey.

2011-04-11T22:53:00.014+08:00

Ya Allah. The last time I felt this way, it was when dinosaurs still roamed the earth.

Happy would be the understatement of the year,elated is putting it mildly,Oh god,I'm just...grateful. Gobsmacked. And this animation below sums my current feelings perfectly.

Caption: Together we move forward.

Yes, sweethearts. Making gifs(the animation) is my new hobby. I like to think it as the platform to unleash the creativity inside me. Some people play guitar. Some paint. You know the drill.

This is not a celebration. My journey is still far.

Misery Business.

2011-04-10T15:22:00.001+08:00

This is serious, people.

The next time you want to butt in other people's affair, answer this "That's my problem because....." (In less than 200 words. Just kidding. Blab all you want, be convincing though).

You see. It's not that I don't care, I do, sometimes too much. It is when I realize it isn't mutual that I stop. Just trying to protect my heart baby, tell me that isn't wrong.

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Dear Padfoot,
I love you, you are the Kurt to my Blaine; just in case you don't watch Glee, you can reckon the saying as; you are the Oxygen to my lungs..................I think. :D Keep fighting!

Xx

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Reincarnation.

2011-03-31T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hope this new look stays a bit longer, if not forever. For whatever it is worth. Stay tune for more updates! (Haha, as if!)

Xx